First Things Second...

Allow me to introduce myself... I am a twenty-six year old mother of one beautiful daughter, my husband is my best friend and until recently I was a student of writing. I was a bit of a party-girl. I was a server. Now, I am focusing on all things natural family living. We cloth diaper (it's easier than you might think). I am ecologically nursing. I am really into babywearing. We try to eat organic, locally produced foods. And sometimes we fail miserably. I am getting back into crafting... sewing, knitting, for now and other endeavors as the days go on.

So, as I discover and investigate new information regarding trying to raise a child in an environmentally-friendly, sustainable, nurturing way I will share it here. Hopefully, you will find it helpful or interesting or at least not nauseating.

Here we are, the mei-tai style carrier is made by BabyHawk.




They allow you to customize your own. You can choose your fabric, color, add a toy ring, and a pocket if you so desire. I will say it's a bit pricey, but it's been worth it, even considering our meager budget. It's comparable to an Ergo, but perhaps a bit more stylish.
She loves it. Seriously. When she sees me pull it out she starts wiggling and smiling. And I can't tell you how much more I can get done.

Let's see a bit of information about me: check. A little about my family and what we like: check. Some information concerning a product that helps me as a mother: yep. An adorable picture of my little one: A-OK.

The Dilemna

Thoughts as of late all seem to center around my return to school or work or whether to stay home with my dear, sweet daughter. I was blessed with a mother who stayed at home despite an aptitude for all things academic and humanitarian. As so many things go, we don't realize our gifts until many years later.

I have swung this week back toward wanting to stay home. Yes, being a SAHM is under-appreciated. Yes, I did intend to receive a terminal degree in my field... But dear sweet daughter caught a cold this week and I can't imagine leaving her to be cared for by anyone else. Her first cold, and although flushing her nose and using the bulb aspirator nearly tears my heart in two... I would rather do that than any other thing in the world if only it helps her feel even marginally better.

So, here it is... my attempt to express some of what many feel - whether to stay at home or return to work. And that's if we're blessed enough to be able to have that luxury. In some ways, it's a lose-lose situation. Yet, I would be more lost still without her.